For the first time in almost two months, I was able to play an entire page of music today. I'm still not back 100%, but it is getting better. I was worried there for a while, really afraid that the Botox-induced paralysis in my hand would prove to be permanent, but the strength in my hand is coming back little by little, so maybe by the end of the year I'll be able to play again. Unfortunately I won't be playing the Vivaldi this weekend for my music club, but that's a small loss.
I have decided that I won't be getting another Botox series anytime soon. It seems they are no longer necessary. I did see my neurologist, and she agrees. Actually, I saw her because I'd had a nasty fall and she wanted to check me out, although I was going to call her anyway about the Botox, so I took care of both issues at once, but I digress.
It appears that the tremors in my wrist and arm have subsided, at least for now. I hope and pray that it stays that way. The most frustrating thing about MS is the unpredictable nature of the disease; you never know from one day to the next how you're going to feel, so you just have to take each day as it comes and be grateful when you get up functioning normally. After about 30 years with this disease I feel particularly blessed to be functioning as well as I am; aside from having to use a cane for balance I do very well and can do most things that I was able to do before. I do have to deal with fatigue and heat sensitivity, and those things affect my cognition and functioning negatively, so I have to be aware of that fact and plan accordingly. But as long as I can play music and sing, I will be happy.
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